YOU GUYS IT'S NEW YEAR'S DAY!!! IT'S 2018!!!! IT IS A BRAND NEW YEAR AND OHHH MAN THIS IS SO EXCITING!!!
You should know that I'm not actually shouting or jumping around in excitement. I'm quite calmly sitting in bed watching the rain fall outside and wishing it weren't doing so. I didn't feel quite right making you believe I was actually that peppy on this New Year's Day.
Anyway, this post is about my mental health goals for 2018. Is it weird to have mental health goals? I dunno. I'm trying to come up with goals for all sorts of areas in my life (as opposed to resolutions, ya know), and it just made sense that I would come up with some for this very massive part of my life.
Okay, enough preamble! Here they are:
Be in consistent treatment
I know, this doesn't seem like it would be such a hard thing, am I right? But it's proven difficult, not just because my life has been all over the place lately, between four years in college, the tumultuous nature of my two years in New York, and of course the fact that I've been in Italy for the past two-and-a-half months. Since I'm planning on staying in Columbia for the next year at least, I'll be seeing a doctor there, finding a counselor, and getting some stability.
Do things that make me happy/bring me joy
This doesn't seem like such a big deal, ya know? It's "elementary, Watson," but I have such a hard time actively doing things that I enjoy; instead, I burrow my head in the sand of sorrow and focus on negativity. I need to stop doing that this year. I need to focus on actively engaging in things that make me happy, even if they have no concrete "purpose" or "value" — aka even if they won't earn me money or further my career.
Want to re-read a book I loved? I'll do it. Want to spend 30 minutes coloring? I'll go for it. Want to dance around to Taylor Swift and sing into the vacuum cleaner? I mean I already do that, but okay, I'll keep doing it!
Further my relationship with God
Okay, caveat: I don't think that spiritual things keep you from being mentally ill. This isn't a goal here because I think if I pray enough or read the Bible enough, I'll be cured. I think that line of thinking is patently wrong and also quite harmful.
I do, however, think that my relationship with God is a fortress and something that comforts and strengthens me. It is something to hold onto in dark times. He is something to hold onto in dark times. The closer I am to Him, the better I'll be able to weather the storms.
Help others as much as I can
I try to do this already; that's part of the reason I'm writing this post, actually. But in 2018, I want to reach out even more. I want to help people, and not just through writing. I want to volunteer and donate time and even money to making others' lives better, not just in the mental health realm.